February 15, 2013


February 14, 2013

I'm 22. But, do I look like one? I'm not even used to be called 'Ibu' at work. I'M SEVENTEEN AT HEART! I'M FOREVER YOUNGGGGGG! Hahaha. Just like Pixie Lott said in her album, 'young, foolish, happy' :D

People said I'm a little spoiled kid who always wanted things to go under my control. And yes, that's somehow true. Selfish much?

Lately, I've been thinking about how much I wanted a perfect man. Wow. Perfect men, do they even exist? Today is Valentine day, and I do really wish I had someone who really care.

I want a man who...

- waits for me to come inside the house before leaving to his
- can decide which restaurant to go when I got confused
- understands that I'm overly attached to Twitter, Instagram, and any other social media
- understands that I want to be treated like a princess on several moments, like my birthday, and Valentine, and Christmas
- smiles when I introduce him to my friends
- keeps his promise(s), like when he promised to eat Sushi Tei, or to watch Skyfall together
- reads my blog
- knows that I prefer cheese cake than chocolate cake
- drives slowly just because I'm a very paranoid person when it comes to driving
- won't get tired when I ask him to accompany me walking around the mall without any purpose

.......And the list goes on.

Today is Valentine's day, and I don't feel happy at all. It's just an ordinary day. No chocolate, no flower, no romantic dinner. I guess I'm asking too much. This isn't fairy tale. I should face the reality.

I love you. For everything you are. And for everything you're not. You know who you are.
Happy Valentine's day!

Xoxo, J.
Sent from my BlackBerry® smartphone from Sinyal Bagus XL, Nyambung Teruuusss...!

February 13, 2013

Marry Your Daughter

#nowplaying Brian McKnight - Marry Your Daughter

Who doesn't love Brian McKnight and his soothing voice? Lagu ini udah lama jadi track favorit gw setiap kali dengerin iPod. Tapi... Setelah beberapa kali iPod di re-Sync, lagu ini akhirnya lenyap dari iPod. Dan baru sekarang muncul lagi. It was one fine afternoon at work. Seperti biasa, gw paling hobi nyumpel kuping pake headset, tenggelam dalam lagu. Saat itu kantor kosong, semua lagi pergi. Just me, myself, and I *ala-ala judul album abegeh gaoel di frenster* Pasang volume max, didukung cuaca yg mendung, suara Abang McKnight yg syahdu, lirik lagu yg a bit cheesy tapi nampol, jiwa gw langsung hilang.

Sir, I'm a bit nervous about being here today. Still not real sure what I'm going to say, so bare with me please if I take up too much of your time. See in this box is a ring for your oldest. She's my everything and all that I know is it would be such a relief if I knew that we were on the same side. Cause very soon I'm hoping that I can marry your daughter and make her my wife. I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life and give her the best of me 'til the day that I die. I'm gonna marry your princess and make her my queen. She'll be the most beautiful bride that I've ever seen. I can't wait to smile when she walks down the aisle, on the arm of her father, on the day that I marry your daughter.

Baru nulis liriknya aja, udah terharu. I know I easily cry. Especially on beautiful thing like.... MARRIAGE. Beberapa minggu yg lalu, aku menghadiri pemberkatan pernikahan di gereja. Terduduk seorang diri di belakang, mendengarkan Pendeta membacakan janji suci, tanpa sadar air mataku menitik. Terlebih saat sang pengantin wanita meminta restu pada orang tuanya, memeluk ayah ibunya, aku tak bisa menahan air mataku lebih lanjut. I swear this is one of the most beautiful moment in life. And I can't help myself not to imagining my future marriage. I'm really considering to use this 'Marry Your Daughter' song when my future husband picks me up at the aisle :')

Apa ya rasanya... To spend your whole life with someone you love, someone who loves you equally (or even more)... How can you be sure that he's the one?


Ah, bingung.



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