April 26, 2009

damn tired .

life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.
life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.life is hard.

GUDBYE DARLING :(

AAAAAAWWWWWWW. saya.. sedih.. sekalii.. :'( :'( :'( hape kesayangan gw. nokia 7390 pink. my L'Amour. hari ini ia telah pergi.. pergi tuk slamanya.. dan tak kembali lagi !!!! *cry cry cry bangeeeet*
rasanya sedih deh, kehilangan tu hape.
secara itu bener" hape paling indah yg pernah gw punya. T.T

hape yg trendyyy. yg sweet baby pink. yg lucu. yg imut. yg stylish. yg MAHAL. yg special & limited edition.
huhhh ! terpaksa skrg hrs gw jual :(

baru dua tahun dua bulan dua hari gw bersama dengannya.
Beneran lho. hari ini tepat dua tahun dua bulan dua hari.
Gw beli 24 Feb 2007.
skrg 26 April 2009. ya kan bener kan ??? Hwaaa i'm so sad !!
byk kenangan di hape pink.
udah dua kali gw tangisin [pertama gara" ga sengaja datanya keformat, ilang smua sms dan foto" gw! kedua, gara" SMS yg udah susah payah gw kumpulin ilang gitu aja!]
pernah nyebur k ember wc jugaaa.

pernah bikin gw panik gara" hampir ilang di classroom binus ! geblek lah ituu.
intinya i love nokia 7390 banget.
dan ini adlh jangka waktu tercepat dlm sejarah penggunaan hape gw.. cuma dua taun!!!! HEBAAAAT
dan skrg gw ga tau hrs ganti hape apa.

Terpaksa gw jual gara" batrenya udah rusak.
FYI, gw udah ganti batre 4 kali >_<
batre asli gembung, gw beli batre palsu 20rb.
batre asli HILANG di binus sialan, lalu nggak lama dari itu btre palsu 20rb pun gembung juga.
gw pun membeli batre palsu dgn hrga lebih mahal (berharap daya tahannya sdkit lebih bagus), 25rb ! *hahahah cuma beda goceng :P*

lalu itu batre pun gembung lagi hanya dalam waktu krg dari sebulan.
PLUS, charger asli gw juga ikutan rusak >_<
tapi dasar barang murahan ga penting, dalam waktu satu minggu itu charger sudah tak berfungsi lagi.. !
kurang ajar gw ditipu nih kayanyaa.

gw pun males beli charger lagi, akirnya gw memutuskan buat barengan aja pake charger ade gw.. hmm, lumayan repoooot.
klo dua"an pas lagi abis barengan tuh rese banget. haha.
tapi gw berhasil mengatasinya kok.
SAMPAI DI SUATU HARI
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...
gw merusakkan charger ade gw O_____o !!!!
kabelnya terinjak dan p u t u s .
hehehehe.
ade gw pun ngamuk".
hiks.
akirnya, dgn kondisi batre super gembung, dan charger yg berebutan bertigaan (gw, ade gw, dan bokap), gw membulatkan tekad utk membeli 1 batre yg terakir dlm hidup gw untuk ni hape pink !!!
ga tanggung", gw beli yg mahalan : 4O RIBU ! :DD
nah,
hasilnya....

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SAMA AJA BOONG -.-

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walopun gw sayang sama hape pink, tapi gw ga bisa tahan lagi.
gw tersiksa batin dan kantong. T.T

gudbye hape pink.
semoga kau tenang di alam sana.

aku mendoakanmu dari sini.
maafkan sgala kesalahanku yg telah melempar dan menganiayamu yaaa..
ini smua juga kesalahanmu sendiri, yg lebih dulu mengerjaiku @.@

intinya, kamu baik" yaa disana.
semoga pemilik barumu lebih menyayangimu spenuh hati.
(dan semoga dia bukan mbak-mbak centil or tante-tante girang) AMIIIIINN...

mwahh. love uuu so muchh hape pinx,

XOXO~
i will always remember u.

P.S.S : gw beneran sedih banget.

April 25, 2009

me reflection for 2008 .

A year has just been through. I have spent another 12 months, 365 days, 8760 hours, 525600 minutes, and 31 536 600 seconds along this 2008. It was a year that I thought might be the revival of my weaken soul, while at the end I realized that I have not change a lot. What a year ! *sigh*

Now I am trying to find out what the hell are behind those stupid mistakessss.

Well, people keep wondering about this and that, and why things happened in this life, but they just never get the right answers. I am one of those people. I wished for millions but got none. Is life unfair ? You judge.. Somehow, I don't want to judge God. It is enough for me to play with Him. No more...

There are so many choices exist in life. And as well, I got my own choices throughout the year. The problem is, I got lost in those selections !! I didn't even realize that I was in the wrong way (personally). My choice has lead me to a condition with NO CHOICE. Well, I guess I am acting a fair play here. *pheww*

So, about the revival of my weaken soul, I have no idea about what and why. For instance, I am lost. And I am trapped ! there is once a quote saying 'the simplest might take the biggest part'. Well for me, yes it is. One SUPER SIMPLE matter has lead me to a serious stage. Once betrayed, it affects much. I thought a new environment might strength my weaken soul. But again, to this point, I am wrong.

Anyway, I am trying my best to fix and heal my soul. Forgive me, dear God. *hikss* :(

Now here I am. at the end of April. Still seeking hope. And love. And peace.

Still immature. Still unstable. AND STILL HUMAN.

I terribly need a transformation :DD

April 24, 2009

tidur dan makan..

today is still my holiday..
buat preparation my mid exams.
hari selasa baru masuk lagi.. macro economics *@#!%@%!^#%!&@%&*
huffh !
oyaa, hari ini bener" kerasa cepet banget lho..
mungkin krn kerjaan gw cuma nonton and tidur yaaa..
:DD
gw bangun jam dua belas..
trus makan indomie goreng *SLURP* sambil nntn gosiiipp.
niatnya sih blajar. haha tapi mendadak males. ya gimana lagiii.
jam enam, gw tidur lagi :)
bangun" jam sembilaaaan. gw nonton ALISA episode terakhir.
hiks i'm so sad, bsok" ga bisa nonton my prince christian sugiono lagi deh :'(
trus, sekarang browse internet bentar, trus tidur lagi deh ! HAHAHAHHA
what a wonderful dayyyyy i have :)

-xoxo-

April 22, 2009

siapa mau nyanyiin lullaby buat gw ?

it's 3 o'clock in the early morning .
and i'm AWAKE .
i can't sleep :(
bisa ga sih seseorang nyanyiin LULLABY buat gw ?!
jangan lagunya Andity kek yg jadi lullaby gw. huaaaa.
sekarang malah Malaikat Juga Tahu.
HUHH. bosen bosen bosen.

-xoxo-

ini hari bumi :')

Aloha !
(gw pake warna ijoo karna ini hari bumi :D)


hahahahh. Seneng bisa nulis blog lagiii.
jaman dulu gw nulis blog di FS. dan sekarang gw bahkan udah ga punya FS lagi :))
Facebook took it all.. Hahahahah. VIVA FACEBOOK ! yeayy !
Gw delete FS gw dgn consideration tinggi lho, karena menurut gw FS skarang dipenuhi dgn byk sekaliiii or4n9-or4n9 9a j3l4$ yang suka seenakya aja drop comment 'hai beautiful', 'thx for the add. mind to intro?', or else -__-
smakin byk pula ab4n9-ab4n9 dan mb4k-mb4K ga penting yg nge add scr random.
hello. social networking yg too social menurut gw pribadi. Hahahahah.

Tapi gw bisa ngerti banget deh perasaan Jonathan Abrams. Facebook pasti bikin dia ga bisa tidur semaleman (or maybe more). Gw sih two thumsb up yaaa buat Mark :))
He is really good ! dia bisa bikin suatu trend baru, yg dgn gampangnya bisa lgs merubuhkan competitornya.. TELAK..
nice !!! ini contoh marketing strategy yg bagus yaaa (i guess).
Cuma berawal dari ISENG-ISENG, emang, jalan hidup ini gada yg bisa prediksi. even Deddy Corbuzier. hahahahahahh.

Anywayyyyy~
gw kangennnn bangeeeeetttt nulis T.T
rasanya enak. HAHAHAHAHA :D


-xoxo-

April 16, 2009

SUPER DAD X(

well. i really don't know how to work this bloggy thingy out. hahahahh.
i guess i'd firstly greet u guys ~HELLO :)
welcome to my public affair(s). yeahh ! XD

my very first story, it'll b about my SUPER DAD guys. super dad~ super dad~
(and my poni...)

my poni is terribly out of control !
i cut it by myself (obviously for the reason of SAVING SOME MONEY, but ended up with tearsssss).
it worked nice actually, until my brother's big mouth ran it all !
he continuously said "jelek banged sih. jelek banged sih. jelek banged sih" LIKE A HUNDRED TIMES !!!!

then, i TRIED to ask my daddy for a help.
as far as i know, he's good at almost everything,
but obviously not for this poni-cutting stuffs ! (which i just realize at the end. WELL WELL WELL~)
he proudly said, "papah punya alat penipis rambut lho. yang kayak di salon-salon itu"
then, i gave it up to him T.T i gave him all my poni. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA !!! :( :( :(

okay, this is the magic moment,
he only needed like less than 60 seconds to make me scream.

the condition is,

i closed my eyes (feeling so secure at that time >_<),

i heard he said "NAH !",

then i opened my eyes,

looked down to the floor,

and i found segumpelan of my black hair there !!!!

i was so shocked and scared looking down there at the floor.
i can't believe that MY DADDY CUT MY PONI THAT MUCHHHH :X
and the next minute, i was screaming !

this is not lebay guys.
my brother saw it.
my sister saw it.
and they LAUGHED at me coz of my setengah-botak-poni :( :( :(

and my super lovely dad...... he did it too. laughing at his own work. yeahh rite.

i love you so much my super dad !

-xoxo

April 14, 2009

[act one] OPENING SCENE

(playing : A Public Affair - Jessica Simpson)

*All the girls stepping out for a public affair
(All night, that's right 'cause the party don't stop)
All the cameras come out for a public affair
(Who cares, let's rock, 'cause the party don't stop)

Narrator : ladies and gentleman. please welcome our newcomer, MISS J ~!

[standing ovations]

Miss J : thank you so much everyone. thank you. thank you. i can't believe that i'm here now. FOR REAL !! i hope you can enjoy all the shows, alrite ? :))

[center spotlight]

[overlapping ovations]

-xoxo-